Survivors Guilt

I've been contemplating writing this blog ever since I was diagnosed. It's a subject that actually means a lot to me, and it's been playing on my mind for quite some time. Any life threatening situation can have a massive impact on your mental health and it's so important that we talk about that and …

My First PET Scan

After completing six exhausting rounds of chemotherapy - it was time: the moment we have all been waiting for, and the life or death situation. It was calling. My first PET scan was meant to be a few weeks after my last cycle of chemotherapy and my first dose of scanxiety settled in. I didn't …

Chemotherapy: The Finale

My last round, number six, hooray! It came with a mixture of emotions: excitement, nervousness, and relief. Due to work, my mum only managed to come to my very first chemotherapy, so I was relieved she was coming to my last one. She had never been to a normal chemotherapy session, as the first one …

Life Lessons Cancer Gave

No person should ever have to experience cancer and all of the downs it brings. But with any life experience; there's always something valuable you can learn from it. I definitely wouldn't recommend cancer to anyone... it would get 0 stars on yelp from me, alongside a very negative review - it would probably look …

Chemo Number Five

I can't do this.  I don't want to do this anymore.  Those were the first words that came to my head in the morning. Remember what you're doing this for. The pit in my stomach was nothing like I've ever felt before. After this one, I'll have one more left, I convinced myself.  Just get through this. …

The Times I Thought I Was Going To Die

The title isn't click bait, although I wish it was. But, 1) I wouldn't do that to my readers, and 2) the title is true. Looking back at all my life experiences, especially during the past year - I thought I was going to die twice. I was inspired to write this blog after listening …

Chemotherapy: Three’s A Crowd

My third chemotherapy was at The Churchill and this time I was upgraded to the big recliner chairs - get in! It was a long wait before they even started the chemotherapy, they looked really busy and a few nurses were dotted around attending to people. I didn't mind the wait, I had brought a …

24 Hour Heart Tape Monitoring

My 24 hours heart monitoring experience was for my SVT, which was diagnosed half way through my chemotherapy. I know, aren't I lucky? Anyway, they wanted to see what my heart does in the short window of 24 hours. It was a five minute appointment, where they stuck the wires around my chest on various …

Chemotherapy: It Takes Two

My RCHOP chemotherapy was scheduled for every two weeks. Normally, the average person who has this type of chemotherapy will have it every three weeks but as my mass was quite big, and growing by the second, they didn't want to give it a single chance to grow any further. It was a plan. My …

Ovarian Cyropreservation

I hadn't even realised chemotherapy could take away my chances of having children in the future. As a 20 year old female, I hadn't even started thinking about having a family. But when you're faced with the words "you might not be able to have children with this type of chemotherapy." Your whole world stops. …