I’ve Been Gone + Update

Some of you may have realised that I haven't uploaded a blog in quite some time. I can only apologise for my absence but I'm sure most of you, if not all of you, will understand. In a quick synopsis: I've been on holiday to Spain, I've passed my driving test, Christmas happened, I've upped …

My Heart Update

No, this isn't about my love life... Most of you might know that I was diagnosed with supra-ventricular tachycardia if you don't know then I suggest you read my blog or carry on blind... up to you.  Anyhow, I and my cardio team decided that I should finish my cancer treatment and wait until I …

The Cancer Reminders

I've been trying to live my life after being diagnosed (and put into remission) with lymphoma. The more I look back, the further away it feels... but a simple reminder can take me back to that dark place instantly. I haven't been avoiding the cancer circus, but trying to live a life where I don't …

Social Media, Mental Health and Cancer

The holy trinity. Just kidding. I'm writing my blog having finished all my treatment, but I'm still telling my story chronologically through blog writing. I found social media and my mental health went really horribly well with each other when I was going through my diagnosis and chemotherapy especially. I struggled really hard to manage …

Flying To America For Proton Beam

While the news was still fresh in my brain, we still had to prepare for our flight to Jacksonville, Florida that was happening in a few weeks. The shock was still flying around in my mind... and tears would roll down my face from being so overwhelmed. It was time to put a checklist in …

Hair Growth Journey – Part One

Disclaimer: I'm not the best selfie-taker. Disclaimer 2: I'm not glammed up for any of these photos. I'm aware that I look tired in some of these, who can blame me though, right? I shaved my hair off almost a year ago now (June 2018): due to chemotherapy, and my hair started growing back a …

25th May, One Year Onward

One year ago today I received confirmation of my cancer diagnosis; primary mediastinal large diffuse b-cell lymphoma. I've completed the most awful, horrific, and brutal treatments over the past year, I honestly wouldn't wish it upon my worst enemy. 1 cancer diagnosis 1 bronchoscopy/biopsy 1 collapsed lung 2 weeks in hospitals 2 days in intensive …

Wiggin’ It

Losing my hair to cancer was a massive shock to me... for some reason, it didn't cross my mind that I would lose my hair until they mentioned it to me. You lose your identity, and cancer takes that away from you. But fear not, once I braved the shave, I never looked back. We're …

Scanxiety – Poem

An uncontrolled state of mind, the intoxicating sobriety and the induced anxiety. The feeling of the unknown is bliss, but both are brutally co-existing. The evil and the good, tugging the rope of war, battling the thoughts inside my brain. Push and they pull, tethering the nervousness. Picking me apart like pigeons in a park. …

My Guide to a PICC Line

The first thought that ran through my mind when the doctor mentioned that I needed a PICC line was: what on earth is a picc line? I didn't bother asking at this point as I knew it was happening just before I get discharged from the ward and that was in a few days. It …