I’ve Been Gone + Update

Some of you may have realised that I haven't uploaded a blog in quite some time. I can only apologise for my absence but I'm sure most of you, if not all of you, will understand. In a quick synopsis: I've been on holiday to Spain, I've passed my driving test, Christmas happened, I've upped …

My Heart Update

No, this isn't about my love life... Most of you might know that I was diagnosed with supra-ventricular tachycardia if you don't know then I suggest you read my blog or carry on blind... up to you.  Anyhow, I and my cardio team decided that I should finish my cancer treatment and wait until I …

25th May, One Year Onward

One year ago today I received confirmation of my cancer diagnosis; primary mediastinal large diffuse b-cell lymphoma. I've completed the most awful, horrific, and brutal treatments over the past year, I honestly wouldn't wish it upon my worst enemy. 1 cancer diagnosis 1 bronchoscopy/biopsy 1 collapsed lung 2 weeks in hospitals 2 days in intensive …

Wiggin’ It

Losing my hair to cancer was a massive shock to me... for some reason, it didn't cross my mind that I would lose my hair until they mentioned it to me. You lose your identity, and cancer takes that away from you. But fear not, once I braved the shave, I never looked back. We're …

Scanxiety – Poem

An uncontrolled state of mind, the intoxicating sobriety and the induced anxiety. The feeling of the unknown is bliss, but both are brutally co-existing. The evil and the good, tugging the rope of war, battling the thoughts inside my brain. Push and they pull, tethering the nervousness. Picking me apart like pigeons in a park. …

My Guide to a PICC Line

The first thought that ran through my mind when the doctor mentioned that I needed a PICC line was: what on earth is a picc line? I didn't bother asking at this point as I knew it was happening just before I get discharged from the ward and that was in a few days. It …

Life Lessons Cancer Gave

No person should ever have to experience cancer and all of the downs it brings. But with any life experience; there's always something valuable you can learn from it. I definitely wouldn't recommend cancer to anyone... it would get 0 stars on yelp from me, alongside a very negative review - it would probably look …

Chemo Number Five

I can't do this.  I don't want to do this anymore.  Those were the first words that came to my head in the morning. Remember what you're doing this for. The pit in my stomach was nothing like I've ever felt before. After this one, I'll have one more left, I convinced myself.  Just get through this. …

Chemotherapy: Three’s A Crowd

My third chemotherapy was at The Churchill and this time I was upgraded to the big recliner chairs - get in! It was a long wait before they even started the chemotherapy, they looked really busy and a few nurses were dotted around attending to people. I didn't mind the wait, I had brought a …

Give The Gift Of Blood

Christmas is the time of gift giving and surrounding yourself with family and people you love. I love buying people presents, because I love seeing the joy on someones face when they're opening their present. Have you ever thought about giving the gift of blood? I'm not saying you should cut yourself open and spew …