Some of you may have realised that I haven't uploaded a blog in quite some time. I can only apologise for my absence but I'm sure most of you, if not all of you, will understand. In a quick synopsis: I've been on holiday to Spain, I've passed my driving test, Christmas happened, I've upped … Continue reading I’ve Been Gone + Update
The Anxiety that was actually Cancer
Before we begin I would like to put a disclaimer on this blog post: this was my experience with one doctors clinic, and it does not go for all general practitioners in the UK. Thank you. More often than not, doctors are fantastic! I've always admired their hard-work and determination. The levels of education and … Continue reading The Anxiety that was actually Cancer
My Heart Update
No, this isn't about my love life... Most of you might know that I was diagnosed with supra-ventricular tachycardia if you don't know then I suggest you read my blog or carry on blind... up to you. Anyhow, I and my cardio team decided that I should finish my cancer treatment and wait until I … Continue reading My Heart Update
The Cancer Reminders
I've been trying to live my life after being diagnosed (and put into remission) with lymphoma. The more I look back, the further away it feels... but a simple reminder can take me back to that dark place instantly. I haven't been avoiding the cancer circus, but trying to live a life where I don't … Continue reading The Cancer Reminders
Social Media, Mental Health and Cancer
The holy trinity. Just kidding. I'm writing my blog having finished all my treatment, but I'm still telling my story chronologically through blog writing. I found social media and my mental health went really horribly well with each other when I was going through my diagnosis and chemotherapy especially. I struggled really hard to manage … Continue reading Social Media, Mental Health and Cancer
Flying To America For Proton Beam
While the news was still fresh in my brain, we still had to prepare for our flight to Jacksonville, Florida that was happening in a few weeks. The shock was still flying around in my mind... and tears would roll down my face from being so overwhelmed. It was time to put a checklist in … Continue reading Flying To America For Proton Beam
Hair Growth Journey – Part One
Disclaimer: I'm not the best selfie-taker. Disclaimer 2: I'm not glammed up for any of these photos. I'm aware that I look tired in some of these, who can blame me though, right? I shaved my hair off almost a year ago now (June 2018): due to chemotherapy, and my hair started growing back a … Continue reading Hair Growth Journey – Part One
25th May, One Year Onward
One year ago today I received confirmation of my cancer diagnosis; primary mediastinal large diffuse b-cell lymphoma. I've completed the most awful, horrific, and brutal treatments over the past year, I honestly wouldn't wish it upon my worst enemy. 1 cancer diagnosis 1 bronchoscopy/biopsy 1 collapsed lung 2 weeks in hospitals 2 days in intensive … Continue reading 25th May, One Year Onward
Wiggin’ It
Losing my hair to cancer was a massive shock to me... for some reason, it didn't cross my mind that I would lose my hair until they mentioned it to me. You lose your identity, and cancer takes that away from you. But fear not, once I braved the shave, I never looked back. We're … Continue reading Wiggin’ It
Scanxiety – Poem
An uncontrolled state of mind, the intoxicating sobriety and the induced anxiety. The feeling of the unknown is bliss, but both are brutally co-existing. The evil and the good, tugging the rope of war, battling the thoughts inside my brain. Push and they pull, tethering the nervousness. Picking me apart like pigeons in a park. … Continue reading Scanxiety – Poem
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